I Was Anticipating Good Results

I am a lifetime member of Weight Watchers, and I work as a receptionist at the center one night a week. As a lifetime member, I can enjoy the benefit of attending meetings for free as long as I weigh in once a month at my goal weight (or no more than two pounds above it).

I kept putting off my weigh-in for March, hoping to lose a pound or two so that I could weigh in as a free member. I worked hard the last two weeks---tracking what I ate, exercising consistently, and cutting back on sweets (without depriving myself entirely). When I weighed in after my weeks of hard work and dedication, I was anticipating good results. Instead I got the opposite--major weight gain. I was, and still am, frustrated at this. I told my mother, a WW leader in PA, about my problem and she responded with, "Well, what would you say to someone at the scale who had the same problem as you?"

Of course I would say to "keep with it and it will eventually show up," but easier said than done. I know that I should stick with it, but because of my frustration on Tuesday, I have become somewhat apathetic towards my weight-loss goals. I still care---somewhere in the back of my mind, but this week has been a disaster. I can tell that I don't feel well. I can tell the difference in my body when I am doing what is right, and right now, I'm not doing it. Sometimes I wonder what it is going to take to get me to lose this last little bit once and for all.

This is a challenge in my life. It always has been, and I anticipate that it will always be something for which I will have to work hard. It is a work in progress. At least, I hope there is progress.